i'm thinking school, like back in the day when we didn't have to care if our skirts were too long and our hair was a mess. when we could watch the boys and make fun of them like we thought we were so cool, like we were family. back when we could tell each other what we did on the weekend, without it relating to alchohol or smoking. i remember when my homework was to colour in the lines..

but why is it so much harder now.. i feel as if i'm colouring outside the lines.. trying to find new boundaries, making sure i don't spill off the paper. why is it so hard to tell someone what i did or find out during the weekend. why can't we be like family again, and just learn to trust ourselves like when we did on our first tries for the monkey bars, swings, or balance beam. maybe we're just broken families, with sisters and brothers twice removed..

...whatever happened to all the things we learned now? was it imminent that we'd just throw them all away? the only thing we used to look for in a boy in our class was if he'd share with us, or if he'd let us borrow his pencil crayons.. but now looking for a boy that doesn't wanna share what he's caring around 24/7 is what worries us. anyway, either way, i miss being a kid, when we were told who we were instead of looking under rocks for our personalities to be completely discovered. i just wish, it wasn't so hard.

p.s. we thought you were absolutely gorgeous in your profile picture, until we found out it wasn't really you..