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date/time Friday, February 27, 2009,5:00 PM
ladies and gentlemen.
< lie >
1. thanks to all who've pitched in with telling him that i've been flirting with him. you're all such good friends, i love how you think that makes the situation better. :)2. we're officially unofficial. 3. i'll be talking to you 24/7 4. i really do give a damn. 5. i hate you.
< / lie >
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date/time 4:57 PM
homecoming.
sometimes i know that you're insecure, and sometimes i know that im insecure because of your insecurities, but i think we're restarting from here, for the better. so when we're both comfortable, we'll know where to go from there. rebuilding trust.
p.s. HAHAHAH YOUR CELL PHONE ( L )
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date/time 7:34 AM
goodmorning.
when you learn to trust me,
i'll learn to trust you.
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date/time Thursday, February 26, 2009,8:21 PM
PAPER DOLL.
you think i'm not strong, as if i'm made of glass; so easily broken as i am provoked and given the chance. you ask what's wrong when i swim against the tide, you've got me trapped in a box, i'm trying to unlock from somewhere inside. and you say i'm changing, but i don't give a damn, cause i can't restrain who i am.i'm not your paperdoll, you can't keep on dressing me, i don't fit in to what you see. i won't fall, just cause you're touching me, i'm not cut out for what you need. you think i'm a good girl, does that make you feel secure? if you opened your mind, are you scared you might find, you're not so sure? you think i'm submissive, in your eyes i'm down, well too bad for you, you shouldn't assume, i'd take you lying down. i'm not your paperdoll. not cut out for what you need. you can't keep on dressing me. i don't fit in to what you see. & i don't give a damn, cause i can't restrain who i am.
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date/time 7:29 PM
don't ask.
today was another normal school day that always goes by so quickly, and i'm taking a break from all this sh/t load of homework. D: school just goes by TOO FAST, that i'm scared that when it's over, i'm gonna be like.. WTF :( but i love school, and always will 8-|
day one: i don't understand you at times.. but i won't use the word fake.
how do you forgive someone so easily, do you forgive to avoid the problem? how do you stay friends with "friends" who say shit about you?
[i choose to be a happy person. if i have a bad day, i get so mad at myself, and do things to change my day around. i like starting the day well. -britney; for the record.]
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date/time Wednesday, February 25, 2009,8:26 PM
some new thanggg.
so i said to him, boy, can you get away?
i wanna do somethannggg. very small, very fitted, body like a sports car, no limit.
he lookin` over here. lookin` over here. really trying to fight temptation, he's trying to test my patience.
(: neyo - can you get away.
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date/time 7:17 PM
"iwantmymoneyback!"
F/CK YEAH BOY! I AM SO GOOD AT GUESSING OLD PASSWORDS <> ( tastyword = full name :)
well, i'd like to say im sorry.. and that i don't know what's wrong, but when you feel like you're pretty damn weak, the only one that can put you together is yourself.. and that's what i was doing, cause im trying not to be too dependant.
"your friends will always be there for you, but when push comes to shove, you're on your own." -zahar.
so yeah, i guess im just prepping myself for the world even though i haven't experience one percent of what that is.
today was .. rainy, and that's all. cleared up though (:
tyJesus. i didn't eat meat, chyeaahh ( HHH )
OH and on top of that, i felt like i needed to spoil myself and get a haircut. i miss my nammer hair HAHAHA < / 3
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date/time Tuesday, February 24, 2009,10:24 PM
format.
< lie > -i'm done with you, i don't need you. -you're brilliant. -i like what you've been doing (: < / lie >
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date/time 9:35 PM
unstoppable.
don't touch me, don't stare.i'm changing, i've changed.and with you, i don't really care. (:
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date/time 9:31 PM
welcome to the CIRCUS.
play around, lose your life,
sell your soul, and don't hope to get anything in return. this is where you're welcomed to, don't be careful, cause some new things you will learn.
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date/time Monday, February 23, 2009,8:45 PM
i need INSIGHT.
i'd love to be in jail for the power of love.i'm not sure if i'm supposed to be feeling guilty. i'll willingly face my trial. but some do get thrown in prison for the love of power. if you plan to let me escape, make sure you know the plan.
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date/time Sunday, February 22, 2009,7:55 PM
focal point.
i'm not concentrating on how to prevent you from being sad. i'm concentrating on ways of how i can make you happy.
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date/time 10:48 AM
keep it together.
woke up to a tear.stood up to a fall.p.s. i hate how you're stuck in my mind, at the same time, i don't know why i want you in there.
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date/time 2:57 AM
pretty damn sorry.
no matter how much i try, or what i do.. i always forget to forget you.
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date/time 1:02 AM
RIP.
some sappy shyt. Love is as much of an object as an obsession; everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it. Those who do, will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, will never... never forget it.
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date/time 12:11 AM
so yeah.
“Love is patient; love is kind and envies no one. Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude; never selfish, not quick to take offense. There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, its hope, and endurance. In a word, there are three thingsthat last forever: faith, hope, and love;but the greatest of them all is love.”
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date/time Saturday, February 21, 2009,9:05 PM
!@#$%^&*(
HA-HA FUCK YOU. you're fucking lame shit.
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date/time 8:54 PM
unknown capacity.
i have a palette, of only primary colours. and i keep mixing and mixing, to get the exact colour i'm looking for, but i can't seem to figure it out. so until then, i'll keep blending, and i'm sorry,
if i've got no paint left..
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date/time Thursday, February 19, 2009,10:02 PM
tell me how do i breathe.
why am i so frustrated. i'm trying to figure out the answer to this riddle.
am i mad at you for loosing your attention. or am i mad at myself for giving it away?
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date/time 5:44 PM
floating.
i hold my breath, to keep myself from smiling. i close my eyes, to keep myself from crying. cause everytime i see you smile, i get those butterflies. but the only thing besides your hi, i only get good-byes. but where is the good, in the second thing you say, if you've let me go, let's atleast be friends, cause if we're cool then baby, i'll be okay. and you walk away, in the middle of my heartbreak. and still, i can't move on, but the only thing, i know from now, is that
i'm used to it.
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date/time 5:19 PM
homeboyyy, take over this show. [:
THAT SIZZLE:a) kathlene and i were the first ones in the caf b) no french test [: NO SHIZZLE:a) the closer we get, the further we are. b) you seem uninterested, where's that smile? c) kathlene's dream FTL. L'ECOLE:d) CHOIR, HAHA damn we sure do suck, naaaaatt. <3 just compared to the concert choir who walked in haha. the month of maying? yee, spring. a) french, thank yuhhh zahar for another free block. (: except we've got another test next week? b) ENGLISH TEST NEXT WEEK ? oh baby, throw us another one. c) math, math, my favourite block. why ? cause i sit wichuuu YOUUU KNOW?today went by so fast, every day goes by so fast, and my increasing feaar of loosing my time with you, is everrr soo impatient. cliiick. so yeee, i am officially bussing home from now on, i've decided. p.s. friends come and go, really. and when they leave, they might never be anything more than another faint shadow, already forgotten at sunset. p.p.s. WORLD RECORD CHYEAAAHH, and in the process of running to the caf to be the first, cinderellathlene lost her shoe (:
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date/time Wednesday, February 18, 2009,9:08 PM
HELLO WORLD.
LOUD AND PROUD:these words of my own, la la la la,i love you, i love you, i love you. la la la la la, la la la la.i forgot the lyrics : ( but that doesn't matter, the linesi remember, are the ones that are important.so i just felt like saying this. (: <3>
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date/time 7:05 PM
totally.
1. THE HAPPS.a) i can rap & charlon olsem is my gangster beat boxer. 2. THE HIGHLIGHT(s)a) you, my love, ofcourse. b) STEVEN LOOKS LIEK A FURBEE HAHAHAHAHAHA 3. DOWNFALL(s) a) kookie's forgotten cookies LOL b) the "je ne sais pas."s. 4. SCHOOLg) that was probably the best religion class ever, besides the journal writing at the end and the short time span of it. it was incredibly relaxing. oh baby, my " talk with Jesus " that was pure G. HAHA, seriously. there's something about the chapel, and i love everything about it, even if it looks ghetto.. h) FRICK, I HATE IT WHEN Ms. GOOGS CHOOSES GROUPS :( FTL. atleast i have francis colcol to make fun of, mucho adoras. so yeah, im working on the socials projects right now. and i think we're drifting, unintentionally. e) HAHAs PE, gotta love the ultimate healthy canadian teen, jessica lee marino <3 healthy choices? start eating lunch and stop saving ? eh .. f) starting to love science. bump that 74 up to a 90% ? RIGHT, keeppp dreeaaaaminggg. : ( anyway, mr. doppler.. i think your effect of elongating(if that's a word because it sure sounds like one) wavelengths due to motion, should be put in motion, due to awkwardness. so yeah, keep your colour on the redshift (8 next class, will be consist of hardcore wangster freestyle rapping, dissing big time, and do anything. [ : be der or be [ ] hahaha yeaaaah and at home, STUDYING. i'll try not to be much of a try hard. p.s. i'll ignore your attempts to include me in your harsh acts of "unatonementation." (: >>thee shyt ryt nuhw: feeling you - T.I. < winnergirl, you are amazinnngg. (L)
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date/time Tuesday, February 17, 2009,5:28 PM
you should let me love you.
today, was immensly exhausting. i slept early from such a tiring day yesterday (one of thee best days ever) but i still would love to press rewind 23904830948x bayycaas it was (one of thee best days ever:) SAO, my family can't get enough of states, and i can't get enough of shoes, even if they don't really fit me HAHA, next time i'm getting those rainbow ones. time to saaaaaave agaaaainn : S
high top vans, check. ruffle B&W shirt, check. long sleeve oversize pink/beige, check. jet black skinnies, check. nike rainbow hightop premium, unchecked :'(
i'm not materialistic, all girls should love to shop (:
highlights of my day. 1. coming back to talk to you. 2. memories.
p.s. i'll write you out, and keep you as a draft, for no one but me to read.
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date/time Monday, February 16, 2009,8:15 PM
august 14th-25th.
FIRST OF ALL, i will miss you A LOT.GERMANY ITALY/ROME FRANCE/PARIS LONDON/UK WISH COME TRUE? not without you. haha damn.
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date/time Sunday, February 15, 2009,2:07 PM
even if i go crazy.
no more interpretations of what i hold close,no more searching for that definition of heartfelt prose.speeding up shallow ends on a freeway.i don't need a deeper meaning,i've got it all, and i'm keeping it.you're my essential.
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date/time Saturday, February 14, 2009,12:08 AM
explosive.
i am in love with you, you set me free. i can't do this thing, with life without you here with me, cause i'm dangerously in love with you. i'll never leave, just keep loving me, the way i love you loving me.
beyoncé(:
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date/time 12:06 AM
VALENTINES DAY.
all the single ladies, if you like it then you should've put a ring on it. (: HAHA what ? okay, happy valentines, world. i love valentines. ( L )
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date/time 12:00 AM
highlight.
i like the way we can fill up sweet nothings, that last all the way to that 'forever.' happy valentines hubba bubba. (: i know we're pretty damn young, but in a few more years HAHA. love is patient.
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date/time Thursday, February 12, 2009,7:05 PM
rootbear.
this may be gay, but whatever. towhomeverthismayconcern, i don't want to say sorry because i've never done anything to intentionally hurt you. i tried fixing things, and i know you did too but you've gotta understand why i didn't make our 'whatever' work at first, i was obviously hurt by the reasons you chose to actually stop talking to me but now it's different. you told me that you missed all three of us, no doubt, i can say the same thing.. because i know you're still the same person i hung out with before, and i don't care about what everyone says, i never said i wouldn't stop having your back because i've never talked behind it to hurt you. we both know you're not like that. i just wonder if you really meant it when we made that promise before grade 9, i liked it that way, how we could tell each other anything cause you were seriously the closest friend i've ever had. and i know you've had problems with .. yeah, and since my family knows yours, i told you i'd be there to pick you up even at 3 in the morning, cause ever since the beginning i knew what you were going through. i already apologized for the things i've said before, and you have to understand that i was just so fucking pissed off because of what everyone was telling me about you, but it doesn't mean anything. you should know how i felt, because you went through the exact same thing, but you didn't mean it either, you just needed a way to get some shit off your back too. so yeah, im not expecting you to say sorry to me just cause, and im not expecting everything to go back to us being that tight shit even after you read this because people will probably tell you it's bs.. but hopefully it's easier to believe this then the retarded words that i didn't mean before. p.s. it was an accident. p.p.s. you can vent to me whenever, this time it'll be different.
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date/time Wednesday, February 11, 2009,6:51 PM
forever mine.
One look in your gentle eyes. Let me know I would spend my life. All my years in your gentle arms. All my days with your love so warm. One sound of your precious voice. Let me know that I had no choice. I knew I'd be forever yours.
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date/time 1:22 PM
class and humor.
lately things have been so frustrating or maybe it's just me finishing my curse D: whether or not that's the reason, it's been an okay thing.. i'm still surprised with what people can come up with just to say shit about you for fun, even if you really never did anything to them. really, it is entertaining.. but my first reaction is always hate/anger.. and it's pathetic because i feel like i want to say even more malevolent wasted words to them, but when i think about it, i realize it's not worth it.. that it brings me to their own lame unsatisfied-with-life level. So now that i'm calm again since my sister told me that i'm as pathetic as them when i say something back, i'm going to "refuel myself and not the flame." HAH. Even though, i was tempted to read something that would imminently make me emo, i still did, and this time, it didn't affect me. I saved it.. and i think that should be smart enough for "future preferance". valentines is coming around but valentines day shouldn't be only once a year (: i still don't know what to wear.. constantly trying to put random outfits with the few clothes in my closet together :S HAH. so yeah, i'm officially going to rc after school tomorrow to find something for dressdown on friday :S HOMEWORK and SCHOOL, yes .. i love you.. you keep me feeling like i have responsibilities in life (: sounds insane, i know. i don't understand how two people can get in a fight and forgive eachother with out talking. or maybe that's just the guy way of doing things, but when girls do it, the friendship doesn't seem real anymore.. i mean, if someone said shit about you, you wouldn't want to give back your trust to them THAT easily? it seems kind of fake? .. hmm. p.s. i hope nothing bad happens between you two. i know you've been doubting each other and he's been talking to her a lot lately. from my POV, he's a bit sketchy, maybe not what you call your ideal true friend. p.p.s. she is right.. there's no such thing as knowing what love is when you're this age. unless you're that 1% that actually does. props. mad props. your little line of cliché-esque: everyone makes mistakes; what matters is that you handle yours with CLASS & HUMOR- not revenge.
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date/time 12:34 PM
i hope you dance.
some people think that the physical things define what's within. and i've been there before but that life's a bore.. so full of the superficial. Some people want it all, but I don't want nothing at all. If it ain't you baby..If I ain't got you baby. Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything.
But everything means nothing,
If I ain't got you.
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date/time Monday, February 9, 2009,5:49 PM
GUFN.
don't change the station, the 'seek' button doesn't work.. you'll be mindlessly wandering through blurred static; you won't hear or understand anything through incomplete whispers..my intentions are foolish, therefore..in act, don't include yourself in the process of my first reaction. every impulse has to do with you, only in a secondary source. i don't mean to hurt..but at times i think i need to feel needed.. to feel you fill your footsteps over mine, though understanding the wrongness of leaving you baffled. i don't believe in over-protection, i've already impersonated what only is; human belief.. to resemble the way, both our mind's accidently wander to trespass on forbidden darkness. don't act. i see your eyes, right through your cores, and i feel your negative vibe.. denying your impatient emotions; refusing to 'unleash, awaken, summon' unwanted zeal, trying to hide.. relentlessly, more so unintentionally reflecting your unfavoured thoughts. don't hesitate with me, even if that might be hypocritical.
my issues are unimportant, so until further notice, please don't dare take me
seriously.
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date/time Sunday, February 8, 2009,10:02 PM
i feel like writing a book.
CHAPTER 1. there's going to be many more chapters. i love you all. haha and i love how i can talk to you about anything.. it's pretty funny HAHA when i think about it .. it's not even awkwad.. so yeah ( : muchoo love ! .. ( L )
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date/time 11:19 AM
the grand finalé.
this term, that 4.0 is mine.
hopefully.
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date/time Thursday, February 5, 2009,6:17 PM
tralala.
yeah so i'm bored, and i feel like writing about aujourdhui. UGH, i hate waking up late, but i'm always the first one out of the house anyway, can't wait for school , hmm. except today, those chocolate things that you can only get from one bakery, which comes from LA MEILLEUR CHEZ ever.. paris :D made me the last one out of the house.. ftl. otay, i made notes for science chapters in the 45 minute car ride to school that we're not even going to study until ms. chan gets back from trying to discover a new element so that maybe one day, her les eleves might start to think she's actually cool(yeah right) OMG, socials, was GG.. the patriot movie which googs is now letting us watch during every class contains one of the hottest dead people ever: heath ledger (: thank you abben for agreeing with me, tomeia and ms googs herself. i'm starting to like day 2s. HAH. second block, bring your favourite snack for PE.. FAIL.. brownies are good for your health............................................ if you have diaaabeeteess. (A) SCIEEENCEE !! s2 Ms.ZAHAR FTW ! omg, science classes are FTW now, since ms. chan is GONEGONEGONE(Y) for nowD: we're learning first aid, and i learned the heimleich ( how ever you spell it ) maneuver. LAWWLL, and about allergies : ( explaining to the class about my temporary blindness was GAY. but Justin's epipen LOL made it all better. FREE LUNCH. i learned to beat box HAHAHAHA, still noob thouuughh : ( anddddd i fell asleep in religion again. bussed home with jaysonn and julian & that was basicalllyy it today. YEYEYEYE, p.s. even though you can be so obnoxious.. im not angry anymore, i just want things to be normal.. whatever normal is cause we all know, we're all so immensly far away from that. p.p.s. i hope you're okay, even though you hope i'm not. p.p.p.s. i saw 23 like 90234802394803 times today (: MUCH LOVE.
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date/time Monday, February 2, 2009,10:34 PM
-ADDICTED-
OKAY YEAH, so LENKA I just started listening to her songs and I think she's an amazing artist. I think my durastic transfer from R&B to this kind of jazzy pop musical sensation has brought me to a conclusion: this music makes me trés content (: oh, and LILY ALLEN is pretty damn crazy too. TRY: -jazmine sullivan -chrisette michele ( L ) ear candy of the year. p.s. THE CORALINE MOVIE TRAILER IS ACTUALLY STARTING TO SCARE ME HAHA!
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date/time Sunday, February 1, 2009,9:29 PM
oreos.
me: do you like oreos with milk? ♥ac: i don't know, they just make it cold.. me: ... ♥ac: unless you have warm milk. me: HAHAHAHA omg, make my day, even though whoever reads this probably won't get it. ( H )
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date/time 6:02 PM
REALITYCHECK.
love is respect.
..oh snap, i fell inlove,
i just can't get enough.
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date/time 1:05 PM
over.
where did you get thatblank expression on your face?it was in style, in your style, for awhile, but now i can't get fooled. you're wasting your time, my time, and you can keep wearing it. You're not on top of the world, you're bringing yourself down, down, down.. if you can't find substance in yourself, buying that foundation makes you lose.
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it's hard for me to pretend.
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I'm Chelsea.
"wish that it was a perfect world where you could just forgive and forget; but you kind of learn that if someone loses your trust, you have to help them grow too, by giving them the consequence of 'letting them go and moving on..' it's hard to let someone go, but at the same time if you really love them, you're going to teach them what's right. love is selfless."
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