aw.. i really miss paris again. i wish i didn't go to rome OR europe.. i wish i spent the whole 13 days in paris with my cousins. i didn't even expect myself to cry when they left the hotel. my sister said "just watch she's going to cry." and i tried to hold it in, but for some reason tears just kept coming out. of course it was hard, because i haven't seen them in 9 years.. and i really miss them. i don't think i've ever cried because i knew i'd miss someone, and i didn't think i'd cry when they left, but i did. and i still miss them, but the only thing i can hold on to is the bracelet that my cousin jherwin gave me. it's not brand name or anything, but it's priceless. again, i don't know a whole lot about them, but i trust them with everything, and i love them with everything. i miss them.. a lot :( haha fcuk, i'm such a drama queen.
i was on the air plane for 14 hours and you'd think i didn't have anything to do.. but i ended up watching 4 movies and 2 episodes of flashpoint cause they had those touch screen tvs with a lot of things to listen to and watch on it for each seat.. anyway, one of the movies that i could watch was "Ghosts of Girlfriends Past," and i thought it was a really good movie because it resembled how a person that doesn't want to get hurt, diverts from being in love from the fear of getting hurt by falling in love, and instead decides to hurt people and get people to fall in love with them.. and in turn having them feel what you've been through when you did get hurt. i guess it's really true though, as much as you trust someone, you can't help but to think that you're going to get hurt again, and you make yourself try and believe that you can get through it easily and pretend like you never were in love. but what actually happens is the opposite from not feeling anything. there was just one thing that stuck out the most for me, and i've always tried to keep it that way, and i don't know if i've stuck to it but anyway..
"in a relationship, the most power goes to the one with less feelings for the other." so you can either choose to be powerful, or open yourself up fully and.. fall.
i woke up at 8:30 and got ready for.. EURO DISNEY! (: my dad, stan, michael, my sister, and i met up with my two cousins (L) and took the subway. THEY HAVE 2 FLOORS IN THEIR SUBWAY TRAIN! got to euro disney and only payed 70% of the actual cost cause of some hook up with my uncle.. and we had a fast pass so we went around and got the passes for the roller coasters like space mountain and an actual indiana jones ride that doesn't stop like the stupid one in cali. left for home and played big 2, signal, and battle course with the cousins and i think we all got so hyped up we all screamed. ate some pan de chocolat (my love) and waited for ate joanne to get to the hotel. left for shopping and didn't find anything in less than an hour. took the metro to some fob place where we ate fob pork bbq with an oversized portion of rice. departed with cousins and left with stan, michael, mom, dad, sister and me to the eiffel tower. climbed the eiffel tower!! got home and took a really good shower. packed for my last 2 days. and is now here.. i really miss my cousins even though i saw them today :(
p.s. if only all of the male population acted like my cousins (jayson and jherwin).. they'd (every single boy in the world) all be taken.
SO.. anyway.. paris has been amazing. what i've grown closer to and what i consider almost closer than God is my family. i haven't realized the biggest difference with family and friends until now..(kind of) i knew it's always been there and i know how important family is but to experience all of that love all over again is way too overwhelming. i haven't seen 2 aunts, 2 uncles, and 4 cousins (Ingrid, Joanne, Jayson, and Jherwin) in about.. 7 or 8 years? and the moment we saw each other.. we grew closer than before.. and we both knew it even before we exchanged the XOs. they don't know much about me, probably not as much as friends do but still.. love is seriously a strange thing in general and i 100% unconditionally love my fambam. (L)
i've done way too many things to update.. i guess i'll start when i get home if i have enough time cause i have to go to pinkys, get a haircut, watch final destination, ride the canada line, hang with jailr, and see da...s mom (: in general.. i LOVE paris and all the places i've been to and i really do NOT want to leave and go back to Vancouver. the only thing i really miss that's making me homesick is the smell of Canada Air (can't get any fresher), my family back there, my conditioner harajuku spray, and mostly.. Chiclet (L)(L)
on another note.. every time i get on the computer i learn something and i don't wanna get into all the drama but this is what i have to say: i forgive easily.. cause we're supposed to. apologies do matter if they're genuine.. and they are for you (read elizer's newest blog). if someone apologizes to you, things aren't automatically "okay." if you honestly don't wanna go through the hurt all over again, i woudn't be their closest friend again.. unless they work extremely hard to gain your trust again but other than that, you already know who your true friends are since grade nine IS over, so why make old ones new ones again?
honestly.. it's kind of hard to accept an apology if you've been through so much hurt and that's probably why i'm not expecting any apologies, not because of the hate but because of the hesitation since you already know..
p.s. what better place to drink then paris? yes, my very first time to actually SWALLOW alchohol was here.. and my dad's student got drunk. funniest shii ever. i don't think i wanna get drunk and throw up all over the place unless i'm physically, emotionally secure with family, friends and myself.. HAHA (:
The resulting effect of the fully fledged sun on European bodies of the beautiful city of Rome/Italy is almost contagious when its uncomfortable smell pushed up my nose, but not quite. There was a major difference to the noticeable civilization change from a two hour flight from Rome to my absolute future background.. LONDON! The hectic and messy streets of Rome don't even measure up- in a most positive way- to th
e serene and inviting streets of London. In three simple words.. London Is (ABSOLUTELY) Gorgeous.
The only legit objects i could afford keeping a blog on from Rome to avoid forgetting what has happened were little pieces of my 5 Gum wrappers.. which i am currently typing off at the moment.
you can imagine how hot it was...
I seriously considered life in Rome just because the language sounds as beautiful as the architecture in Rome it self. (i learned.. 'sono allergico alle arachide'..HAHA and a whole lot o other things :) The language seems easy to learn and basic
ally everyone knows english too, so adjusting wouldn't be hard, but the weather is a whole new section. The graffiti on every street corner block made the scene so much more comforting to my taste in a city. However, the moment i stepped on the platform to London made the biggest change and a future decision for me. I Love London. I want to grow up and live here after getting my RN in from UBC. If you haven't been here before, you have to put a visit to London on your bucket list. This place is more than inviting and the people here are so friendly. I've never seen a better photography city than this one.. even the airport was amazing. Looking through the hilton hotel windows I'm staying at.. i can see pie
ces of London and every little piece is gorgeous and perfectly placed.
anyway.. i'll get into the more detailed DAY stuff soon and make every blog per day from my stay in Rome.
people i'll miss and think about while i'm gone...
DENZEL: i'm seriously going to miss you b :( thank you for today, yesterday and the day before.. haha i didn't know i would see you for all those days but i really made the effort just to see you before i left. don't read my chain okay?! haha even though i opened your letter. thank you for your cross necklace :$ don't worry, i'll keep it safe and wear it always.. thanks for not getting mad at me for opening it. on another note.. thanks for being my back AND front support.. i know i've done pretty stupid things, and i'm really damn stubborn, but you really make me realize the optimism in everything and how stupid i act that i let you call me noob. :( i didn't really think we'd have too many downs, but we've had a few that i can still count how many but surprisingly they made us so much more stronger.. i'll miss you a lot, a lot, a lot :) take care b, i love you!
ELIZER: you were homesick, but when you came back to Canada, you wanted to go back to Philippines. T_T i won't feel that way, HAHA as much as i wanna go, i'm gonna miss you.. cause we haven't hung out that much while you've been here. but i guess that's okay.. cause when i see you i'll still do that LG thing and scream like i haven't seen you in ages even though it's true that i haven't.. huh. i'll really miss you, even though i really miss you now :( i'll try and find you something okay?! (L)(L)(L)
MIKAELA: WTF DID I TELL YOU HAHAHAHA finding all those hot boys fo yo self. we didn't get to go shopping.. and i seriously love shopping with you. :( but i found this AMAZING vintage store on ..... WUAHA, so i'll tell you when i get back. oh and your windbreaker?.. JEALOUS. SO CHEAP.. that's why i should go shopping with you. thanks for everything bestie. so.. even though you're the biggest bitch ever AHAHA i love you, i'll miss you, and i don't think i'd be in st.pats still if it weren't for you. you were like..the only person that stood up for me.. you're BOSS, man haha and you should be happy that my mom said i can go anywhere, at anytime with you cause she trusts you the most T_T haha yeah, so come over and sleep over again so that we can go out and party hard with matt and LISA!! oh and thanks for the letter!
KATHLENE&chester: you're the biggest ditcher EVER! but don't worry, i am too HAHA. we haven't had our double yet.. and i don't know when we will.. but we keep talking about having it so i'm pretty sure it'll happen soon. so just so you know, you two are my inspiration to keeping a relationship through..A LOT of ups and downs. so jsyk.. we've been through so many of the same things, and probably will continue to go through all that.. as a really good friend i just wanna say.. STAY SAFE. HAHAHA jk, i just wanna say i love you guys and i still got your front and back. MISS YOU BOTH. i'll buy you a hot boy kathlene, and i'll buy chester.. a keychain haha (:
TOMEIA:we didn't even chill more than 3 times this summer.. WTF. but you've been MIA cause you broke your phone HAHAHAHAHA and i have THE BIGGEST present for you.. you'll scream and cry for hours. (: i miss you, thanks pretty, for not telling everyone my really big secrets HAHA <3
REN: you're a bitch. have fun when you're camping! i hope nomadic chugs rape you in your tent. (: bring me back a rock HAHA.
JESSICA: i seriously wish we could see each other in italy.. BUT you're probably.. with some italian guy and making hot babies. (: i miss you!
CHARLON: I HATE YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING ME THINK YOU WERE MARK MEJIA. anyhoo.. i enjoy our late phone calls.. we don't stop talking and i love hearing your side of views cause it really makes me notice things. dw, we'll probably have a lot more of those.. i still have to take you to richmond dimsum.. LIKE HOLY SHI.. it's THE BEST. mark mejia :( :( :(
shoot, did i miss you? sorry, it's late.. just remind me.
was such a good day besides the weather effects... and it did get better after 7 so yeah (:
i slept at 4:30 woke up at 5 CAUSE CHARLON PRETENDED TO BE MARK MEJIA AND I BELIEVED HIM. UGH. and after the call i stayed up till 6.. and fell asleep at like.. 6:30? :( my mom woke me up at 9 to go downstairs and stay with nick cause he had no one to stay with since paolo and julio were late to work. got dressed and everything for today, and helped julio, paolo, and nick with the coffee bags.. 25 bucks an hour?! dame. thye made good money today. after working, they ended up trying on my students stuff and nick wore my cm jeans and is letting me borrow a crewneck and julio traded my crooks crewneck for his stussy and this other crewneck i'm getting tomorrow :) :) wooooooh! oh and tomeia, i have something special for you!
then i left the house at 3 and met up with da for the third time in a row this week (L) and we watched the time traveller's wife which was pretty sad but i didn't like that much. lovelovelove.
then i had to go home and prep for Dana's birthday party out in burnaby.. but we made an unexpected stop at best buy to buy a camera.. WTF we already have 2 but they're old-ish. my dad bought a camera like renrens cause i told him it was really good.. but then i told him i rather get the SLR camera cause it's way nicer.. and we ended up buying ANOTHER camera.. WTF. i seriously did not expect this!? yeah, so we went to Dana Danes' house after best buy, and talked to this boy i haven't seen in ages. twas a good fambam party.
and now.. i'm home, and looking at my packed clothes and stuff.. waiting for my mom to confirm that what i've packed isn't unneccessary.
eff you august! when i leave, you make vancouver sunny.. UGH! wtf! thirteen days away from home, i'm going to miss you, richmond and your bubble tea :( august 16 to the end of august is going to be SUNNYYYYYYY.
The funny things in life.. an inanimate object cannot choose you, but you can choose it. In reality, it happens every so often that there are people that walk by our lives, even a perfect stranger that creates our interest without even knowing their purpose. It is then that maybe, that stranger decides to find interest in us at an equal level.
There are fences around a garden. The garden in which everyone is allowed in, but once you leave.. there are rare exceptions that let you back inside. Surrounded by two fences, both different like a layer of peeling skin. The metal fence lies on the outside hugging the wooden fence close. You feel a sense of indignity, but decide to move forward. You go through trodding as if passing the front walls of a city, you can only see what lies infront of you.. and not the hidden passes around. You've walked passed these fences for too long, without a hint of curiosity as to what might lie behind the walls.. you wonder why you've never visited here before. And i see you, shouting at me.. but i can only watch.. as you yell towards my window above.
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i was making fun of my dad who couldn't drink my halo-halo viet version drink cause it had coconut milk and for some reason he can't drink it. so i was sipping it and about to say "AHHH" to show off how good it tasted (not that good but my mom did the same thing first, except ate the red beans) and i didn't notice there was a HUGE piece of ice right below where i was putting the glass down.. and ofcourse i let go, and it slipped and all the ice, milk, redbeans AND GLASS went EVERYWHERE. it went on the cushy chair i was sitting on.. and my dad told me to strictly stay still and don't touch ANYTHING.. being stubborn, i swiped my hand thinking i could take all the broken glass pieces off of it without getting hurt.. a piece of glass maybe [ ] that big went [ ] that much into my skin and [ ] this much blood started puddling out HAHAHAHAHA and i got that "you're fucking stupid" look from my dad when i pointed my blood-gushing index finger at him, and screamed "TAKE IT OUT, TAKE IT OUT!" for the whole pho restaurant to hear HAHAHA. and when it came out.. [ ] this much more blood came gushing out. first of all, you don't take the"impaled object" out.. but i had an adrenaline rush and was acting all stupid. you're supposed to compress around it. HAHA and now i'm internally bleeding and it's all literally BLACK looking in the inside of my skin. and the whole time this was happening.. i was laughing. HAHAHAHA go me (:
CUTE DAY:
so after curling my hair for about... 10minutes and digesting my pho.. my mom took my to richmond center and i watched the ugly truth with DA. we were supposed to watch the orphan, but i wanna watch it at riverport instead. HAHA so apparently it was rated R but whatever, i just went into it. and it was a pretty good movie.. if you like a guy, be with him.. don't be afraid to hurt anyone that you're already with.. you're already hurting them by remaining with them when you want to be with someone else. sorry kathlene, i know you wanted to watch it haha.. it was a really good movie (:
CUTE NIGHT:
got home, DA called and we stayed on the phone until.. half an hour ago. made me realize..
-what a guy would do to get a girl who has a guy.
-that im just so predictable
-riddles are stupid
-riddles are fun
-green houses are GLASS HAHA
-it's the month after JULY :) :)
-i need sleep
-i don't want sleep
-i miss you.
p.s. thanks for being late today, i guess i owe you for being so late for up that i missed the beginning of the orphan
"wish that it was a perfect world where you could just forgive and forget; but you kind of learn that if someone loses your trust, you have to help them grow too, by giving them the consequence of 'letting them go and moving on..' it's hard to let someone go, but at the same time if you really love them, you're going to teach them what's right. love is selfless."
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