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date/time Wednesday, October 28, 2009,8:01 PM
call me up and i'll prove to you what i can do.
your friend told you, "they just want you to listen." i was thinking "you should listen to him." so i was like "i just want you to listen..."
and he said
"i don't care if you're talking about what kind of nail polish you're wearing, i don't care if you're talking to yourself at 2am in the morning, i don't care if you're telling me something you think is stupid. I want you to know that as long as i'm there, i'll be listening to every word you say. And if you think i'm lying, you can test me, cause i listen to you so much, i remember every word you say."
at least.. in my dreams.
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date/time Saturday, October 24, 2009,7:00 PM
AWSI - Lifeguard
Today was the second last day of lifeguarding and the evaluation day. It was my second day of teaching and volunteering the students for levels 4, 7, salamander and sea turtle. Thankfully, all the students were super strong in swimming that most of them could get through two levels in 14 days every Sunday. SOO.. i think overall, today was the best day. i still can feel the chlorinated water i swallowed today :( but it was worth it haaah. 8 hours in the pool passed by so quickly. -highlights of the day: 1. progressions 2. even though i'm the youngest in the whole class, i got the highest mark for overall today! 55/60.. not great but good enough - 92% (:
-for tomorrow 1. EXAM! study x3 2. PRESENTATION!! 3. stroke evaluation 4. Last teaching classes :'(
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date/time Saturday, October 17, 2009,10:24 PM
heyy bayyy
i love you, most of you, but secretly all of you.
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date/time Monday, October 12, 2009,8:32 PM
my heart's in several places.
i only think of you as breaking my heart. i'm trying to keep it together, but i'm falling apart. i close my eyes, in the darkening shades of grey.. and before i fall asleep to the endless noise of my radio, i ask myself if i gave it my best shot or if i didn't do enough to deserve this kind of feeling where perfect is no where near my vocabulary. cause that's how i usually feel when we're talking late at night. perfect. but somehow, you don't feel the same way. and somehow, i don't either. i want more than anything else to be able to accept that we arent going to go anywhere because we aren't.. are we?
hopefully your imperfections make me see you perfectly, like they're supposed to.
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date/time Thursday, October 8, 2009,11:37 PM
say that you'll stay.. a little.
you're so charming, so flattering on the inside and out. and for every reason i can see all the girls with you.. but i can't see you with all those other girls.
a girl is a 'just another girl' for awhile, but not until she makes you happy. not until you want her to be with you. not until you constantly think about her. not until.. you can't go one day without her.
i'll just wait and look forward to the day when i hear: "so.. did you miss me? cause i sure missed you."
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date/time Wednesday, October 7, 2009,5:47 PM
pursuit of ...
YAY, they finally released my boyfriend's (juss playin) song "one less lonely girl" as an mp3! and it sucked when i first heard it but it's pretty good, yayy for jb! (: -Song of the Now: The Way It Should Be - Johnta Austin I can't believe i didn't want to go to London, Rome or Paris. My soon to be home (London/Paradise) misses me a lot. I'm stressing over all of this homework, and i want the hot roman sun, expensive foods, and the eiffel tower all back.
SUHH YEAAAH, today was so off. things weren't the same and everyone kept asking me what was wrong and why i looked so mad.. but i didn't even realize, and i don't even know what's wrong. mebss it was the antihistamine in the benadryl that i took last night that i kind of overdosed with, iiiiiiiiiiiishh. so hopefully tomorrow will be better with the J2 sale and everythaaang. back to homework :( this cardigan keeps me warm when the world's being cold.
ps. don't worry. after you do what you do, you'll figure out what to do next cause you're pretty smart haha. promise (: pps. sorry for being yag lately to you, i hate how we have no classes, i miss you.
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date/time Monday, October 5, 2009,9:00 PM
PRINCE :) hacked!
I LOVE YOU PRINCE :) <3 .
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date/time Sunday, October 4, 2009,11:25 AM
uh oh!
this morning started off so bad :( woke up at 7:35 to go to mass at 7:45 and it was already 7:50.. so we didn't end up going until 9.. holy ish! i can't finish this stupid map, i think i'm gonna stay home, naaat. eh, can't wait for the walk today, even though i'm not gonna walk it HAHA. i think i'm changing to pro-choice.. shiiii. anyhoooooooooooo, i misssss youuu b! [: thanks for waiting till i fell asleep again :$$$$
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date/time Thursday, October 1, 2009,9:34 PM
half is not a whole
need you here to warm my hands, my cold hands. the danger of a broken heart is not the pain. the danger is that we know it isn't about love anymore. and it isn't about how perfect we are in our world. it's about how perfect we were in theirs.
the danger is that two become one, and a half of one..
well..
half is not whole. but now, we must make it so.
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date/time 9:15 PM
the oaths we take.
and still, i find myself digging in a closet full of fear for myself to reappear.
the pleasure of individuality, reassures your phobia of abandonment, that you're actually quite put together, though only put together, alone.
the danger is self-reliance.
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music
it's hard for me to pretend.
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I'm Chelsea.
"wish that it was a perfect world where you could just forgive and forget; but you kind of learn that if someone loses your trust, you have to help them grow too, by giving them the consequence of 'letting them go and moving on..' it's hard to let someone go, but at the same time if you really love them, you're going to teach them what's right. love is selfless."
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