|
date/time Thursday, April 30, 2009,8:47 PM
in a fault.
there's no such thing as a good lie. unfortunately, when the intention seems good, you'll think you're doing good to pursue it. unfortunately, we have to get our conscience to kick in, to let us know the benefits and consequences.
and what's more important than knowing your mistake, is having the wisdom to stand up and never do that mistake again.
|
|
date/time 8:47 PM
enough to care.
I know God wouldn't give me anything that i couldn't handle, i just seriously wish he didn't trust me this much.
|
|
date/time 8:43 PM
wildcard.
so my phone's getting taken away RIGHT after school. no phone for ... until summer maybe? good luck.
p.s. if you really think you can get over, do it.
|
|
date/time Wednesday, April 29, 2009,8:28 PM
tell me how do i be careful?
Good idea, Ren.
Love Is Easy Shit.
|
|
date/time Tuesday, April 28, 2009,5:41 PM
i seee youuu.
he doesn't want to know, and you shouldn't tell him.
we can see you from here, and we're watching, while they're judging.
get out of the zone.
|
|
date/time 5:36 PM
they don't want an epidemic.
relieve yourself from the emptiness, the compulsive implulses to temporarily relieve the emptiness.
|
|
date/time 7:20 AM
she's got a huge EGO.
woooow, 6 more days? ewww, im getting WAAAAY too old. so.. goodmorning, i currently have no good food in my house cause my mom doesn't wanna take me to go grocery shopping with her ever again...so i'm drinking coffee and cookies. whatta horrible and unhealthy breakfast. i'm trying to fight that "EAT." feeling..
SO.. i've been wondering.. every single day, i've been losing something that i really really either need or want in my life and already have. and i'm wondering why God's doing this, like.. if he wants me to go through losing basically everything i mostly want and need, then why does it feel like i'm the only one that's going through this..
family hasn't been good at all, except talking with my dad is an A. love? i don't even know, or want to know. God? isn't listening. friends? yeah.
p.s. i had a dream, and it wasn't surprising but really weird, cause in that dream.. things between us are okay. and im scared that my dream might turn into reality, into another nightmare.
peace, love, & LMFAO.
|
|
date/time Sunday, April 26, 2009,10:16 AM
world, world, world famous.
how about thinking straight into reality, and focussing on what we're going to want, because everything that i want now, won't be beneficial in the long run. more reality, less fiction.
p.s. ASHLEY KUMAR, mad respect for you HAHA, you were AMAZINGx87428428347.
|
|
date/time Friday, April 24, 2009,7:20 PM
OTS: mad.
so i felt like writing something, cause i haven't written some random POV story in a long time, cause there've been no inspirations to me lately, except for today's inspiration, that wasn't supposed to be so inspiring.. but yeah. i'm not les, i just wanted to write this in a guy's point of view. no edits, no add-ins, no personal confessions, just an OTS.
ughhh... what is that familiar reverberation, whispering in a crescendo? that yelling inaudible "thump-thump." that.. sweat-dripping nervous hand shaking feeling, that's running through my numbed bones? i swear, if i squeezed my fist again, a drop of sweat would trickle down, and turn into tears as it hit the ground. why am i letting a pointless conversation enervate me?! i don't understand why i couldn't go up to her and just tell her, how i feel.. without yelling, without complaining.. without fighting.. if i could even find the words to say. what's worse.. is i don't even remember why we're fighting .. and why am i not choosing to go through with this when i want her so bad.. wait.. when i want "to be with" her, so badly. this isn't like me, to not be able to go up to anyone, even a complete stranger.
she's holding something of mine, that i treasure so dearly, that i would hold close to my own heart, if that's what she didn't have.
I can't just stand here, silent, with invisible liquid diamonds running down my face, beating my self up about not being able.. to simply say, that everything's okay.. when i know thing's aren't okay, when i don't even know why. and that voice in my head, told me not to give up my humility, but to practice it. and when i do, i'll gain it back.. it's time to be a man in a deep selfless way. i couldn't even explain my feelings to myself alone, but i pictured myself as an untamed beast, reaching out of burning metal bars that block me from my wall of freedom.. and i can't tell her that. ;as i drew in my last breath in independance, i took a step forward.. trying to taste this deceit.. in a positive manner. i still kept my head low, hands in my pockets.. towards her; left foot, right foot.. one after the other, in an extremely slow pace that anyone around would think i was lost. forcing myself to do this, i knew it was for the better, cause i wouldn't be able to go to bed.. mad at her.i was looking for a heartbreak at first, but i realized the heart's a break when looking..and i didn't have any plans on breaking hers.. so i believe this love is blind, and though she might not think the same way i am right now.. i prepared my ears to hear the same heartbeat.. this time, simultaneously corresponding with hers.. and i pray.. oh God,.. i pray that her heart, decides to do that similar act as well..
|
|
date/time 6:53 PM
chocolate high.
i'm going to try to make this short.. we got report cards today! and i was so anxious to get them by 2:30. and i wasn't very satisfied with what i got, but honours is good enough, right? no, not really.. but thank God this doesn't count for our GPA honour thing.. so i've got exactly 2 more months to pull my grades a little bit more up.
thank you.. 1. FINALLY, i understand what ms. chan's been teaching us for 3 classes, because of ren explaining it to me for less than 10.. HAH. 2. i didn't go to mass .. AGAIN :( and reading shakespeare doesn't help if you don't exactly understand all that elizabethian time's talk. but listening to ms. defayes random laughs while reading her book, kept me occupied hahaha 3. sorry Jon, since you're all disfunctionally crippled, i taught jessica the dance during break (: 4. CHOIR HAHA, i was planning to say souvlaki. :$$ 5. QUESADILLAS, that's the only good thing from the caf that i'll buy. 6. .. I can break dance (: or i'd like to think so. 7. the French sub is totally crazy. 8. attempting to be hermia.. hahahaha.. 9. melanie and georgia ! 10. attempting to harmonize "chocolate high" with nen, trying to harmonize "if i were a boy" with jasmine, and successfully harmonizing "mad" with jessica (:D 11. i think the sun's keeping this positivity going. 12. balancing my negativity with your overexaggerated positivity.. somehow.. works.
no thank you.. 1. unexplainably returning feelings. 2. "what's worse is we don't even remember why we're fighting. so we're mad for nothing." 3. missing out on the play tonight, which everyone's going to :( 4. missing out on mikaela's mom's fish and chips :'( 5. pointless tears.
so yeah.. 1. in math.. a positive with a negative equals a negative, so in science if they're so "interchangeable", why do they attract? i like zahar's way of explaing why. 2. if you can get through the smallest fights, to the biggest .. then that just makes the relationship stronger. if you're willing to get through the fight, cause you still genuinely want to be with that person, even though you're sick of it all.. i think that's love. 3. you can't live on love alone.
peace, love & lmfao.
|
|
date/time Wednesday, April 22, 2009,7:24 PM
skipping tripping.
hmm, the day went by so fast AGAIN. i'm getting scared of this speed rate. well, first block was all about midsummer nights dream (: AND next class i have to read the Helena part which we acted in grade 8 :0 :0
are there like no people left in our class? why are there so many new people in other grades and no one going to ours? haha maybe we DO have such a bad rep. most of my classes today were so empty :( and btw, mr. zahars french class wasn't that bad, he actually let us talk a lot which is rare. HAHA tomeia and brandon + timmy and fed HAHAHAHAHA i taught zahar how to make a heart with his hands. (Y) but it sucked without the company of... a LOT of people. and i officially wish that i had mikaela's parents. they let her skip french block to go shopping downtown for SHOES. WTF !
ANYWAY, this morning i was so worried about Kathlene and when i finally found Chester he broke out laughing at me for actually believing that she had to get a plate in her knee to balance out her ankle. HAHA shiiiiii.. i should've known. :(
soo yeahh, as of today, i'll learn to enjoy the epic fail of trying to harmonize with randoms like russel and mark before choir starts HAHA oh and i'm thinking of a confrontation tomorrow... a really really good one.
p.s. if you don't mind me taking your quote.. "it never seems like you miss me, because of that, i'll learn to stop missing you." thanks. p.p.s. thanks for the letter. [:
peace, love, and lmfao.
|
|
date/time 7:08 PM
hope it gives you hell.
truth be told i miss you,
truth be told i'm lying.
|
|
date/time Tuesday, April 21, 2009,10:31 PM
LOOOL
1. hahahaha denzel started crying cause anna put eyeliner on him. HAHAHA wowoweewah.
|
|
date/time 9:51 PM
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH !
i just wanna yell at you, until everything's okay :$ (LLL)
your obliviousness drives me to insanity.
|
|
date/time 8:33 PM
i don't wanna be.
You're everything i thought you never were.and nothing like i thought you couldve been.
there are times when i hate you, cause i can't erase you. i know that i love you, let me just say, i don't wanna love you in no kind of way.
|
|
date/time 8:06 PM
for me?
how do you tell someone that the song that was meant for you was meant for him?
huhhhh....
|
|
date/time 7:58 PM
survive through the night.
i LOVE the fact that you're there for me 24/7 and i can depend on you with anything for everything. i HATE the fact that since i know you're always there, i become less independant.
i'm going to do whatever i've gotta do to make myself that much more reliable to myself, because i can't take risks.. not knowing if you'll be there forever, cause no one can make that promise.
p.s. i liked how your heart's pure, love's sure. p.p.s. before you trust anyone, trust yourself.
|
|
date/time 7:02 PM
FICE.
will you run away with me to prison?
|
|
date/time Monday, April 20, 2009,8:29 PM
PUT THIS ON REPLAY.
I JUST WANT YOU TO LOVE ME BETTER.
|
|
date/time 8:15 PM
-change.
i'm just so sick of it, i wanna pack my shit. but something keeps pulling me back, i just can't walk away when i still believe, that you're gonna act right and be the way that you used to be. i don't wanna be a fool, i just wanna be with you, and all i really need to know is what you wanna do. i hold you down, always without a doubt. i try to be patient but your time is running out. where did we go wrong? tell me what's going on. why are there so many changes.
i stick around cause i just want you to love me better.
you can't tell me that it's just my insecurity, when you already know things aren't quite what they used to be.
-Krowland.
|
|
date/time Sunday, April 19, 2009,5:52 PM
understood.
absence from someone you really love d and really loved you can result in either a secret obsession or an extreme hate. and i understand that, cause either way.. absence makes the heart grow fonder.
be careful what you wish for.
|
|
date/time Saturday, April 18, 2009,12:54 PM
till the sun comes up (:
so baby won't you put your shades on?
imma let the top back, gonna give you all of my attention.. did i mention, i took the day off. tell me what could top that? baby, not it's time for you and me. and now we're rolling .. `till the sun comes up.
|
|
date/time 12:24 PM
MOVE ALONG LIKE I KNOW YOU DO.
Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking, when you fall everyone sins. Another day and you've had your fill of sinking, with the life held in your.. hands are shaking cold, these hands are meant to hold. Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong.
Move along, move along
And even when your hope is gone Move along, move along
just to make it through.
in accepting yourself, you have to accept the realistic hardships that pass through your life. you can't get past an obstacle without getting over it. the whole point of an obstacle is to observe it, learn it, defeat it, and move along to your next obstacle.. obstacles are deceiving and meant to hold you down, and hit you where your weakest.. and if you learn to get through what you want to avoid, move along. what we're most afraid of is the unknown, and by not knowing what's comming next, we can't be ready for the next adversity.. if you can grasp at the thought that you know what you're doing, you'll keep going forward.
p.s. don't let the little disputes get to you THAT easily. p.p.s. don't take the easy way out, just cause it's taking you.
|
|
date/time 8:59 AM
realize.
PACTICE POISE. no more beating timmy up. : (
- things that you want come so much more harder in life.
|
|
date/time Thursday, April 16, 2009,7:31 PM
CHICKEN LITTLE.
talking with ms. nannery in a woman to woman conversation.. she's been through a lot, and she's full of so much wisdom, i learned so much. wowoweeewahh :O
|
|
date/time Wednesday, April 15, 2009,9:08 PM
BAD HABIT.
i've noticed, the more time we spent together, the more we took on each others personalities. and the more things we did the same. and as much as i try to stop, it keeps coming back.
|
|
date/time 8:25 PM
DAD?..DAD!
"if someone means it when they say that they're sorry, can we be bestfriends again?"
BIGD:"well, what have they done to you?"
"i don't know."
BIGD:"was it big?"
"yeah."
BIGD:"did it really hurt you?"
"..yeah."
BIGD:"so then that person isn't loyal if they've hurt you."
"but what if they really mean that they're sorry?"
BIGD:"there are 2 types of people in this situation.. the first will keep hurting you, but worse everytime, and the second will stop."
"..stop if they really mean it?"
BIGD:"yeah."
"so then, i should forgive AND forget?" BIGD:"it takes time."
"how long?"
BIGD:"it's your decision if you really are willing to have this person in your life again to be friends."
"but i want things to be okay, NOW."
BIGD:"it takes time.."
"but why did you decide to for me?"
BIGD: "that what?"
"you said i wouldn't be able to rely on that person ever again, if you're saying they're not loyal..doesn't that mean, we can't ever be friends again, if they're not going to be loyal?"
BIGD: "you have to be careful, but you can be friends again."
"why can't i just forgive right away?"
BIGD: "if that person's really your friend.. they're going to wait until you're ready to be friends. if you let them be in your life too quickly, they might take advantage of that."
"i want to be friends."
BIGD: "if it was really big, you can't be friends right away.. it takes time."
"no it doesn't."
BIGD: "then.. that's an unhealthy friendship."
"God said you should forgive right away."
BIGD: "you can, but it takes awhile for the human mind to be ready to be in a friendship again. it's like wet candle wax.. you have to wait for it to harden and be strong to be able to use it again."
"oh.. okay, but how long will it take then?"
BIGD: you'll know when you're ready, and only you will be the one to decide that.. but that's immeasurable."you can't measure love."
okay, dad, okay. -i'm surprised i remembered this much of our conversation too.
|
|
date/time 8:18 PM
play me a song.
some say the bigger the man, the bigger the heart. i don't blame them from their own downfall. but i've gotta claim that.. the size don't matter, the size don't matter at all.
outré song. (Y)
|
|
date/time 8:00 PM
GRAVE DIGGER
i'm moving on and out of this, so i hope no one takes advantage of that..again.
p.s. school was much more quiet and it had its ups and downs.. why did i feel so tired when no one had to pay much attention during class since half of it was at track while the other half was MIA at school. : ( huhh.. nayway, sorry timmy for playing like a guy with you, i hope you know it's just all part of my fun to release all my anger out on you.. and it seems like you don't mind because you keep provoking me, unless you're just an annoying stupid turtle like that HAHAHA jkjkjkjk! hmm, PE.. made me realize (not that i haven't realized this before) that so many people make unintentional mistakes and when they realize they've made it, they want to take responsibility for it and own up to it, it's all about that growing experience and everything. And when someone tells me they've made a mistake, and they wanna fix it, and are sorry etc, then im sure it will be fixed, and they'll be forgiven. (:
WOOH, today was hott too.. i love the sun. and if it's not sunny tomorrow, i'll be depressed :( unfortunately, over the past few days, just when i realize it's REALLY sunny an pretty outside, a storm follows up after 5 seconds of admiring the sun. UGH, so i guess i gotta keep fighting to see the sun, even after every single storm. why can't it be sunny all the time?
p.p.s. thank you, no more drama.. one less thing to not be stressed about. p.p.p.s. i feel like changing this template real soon.
|
|
date/time Tuesday, April 14, 2009,10:28 PM
LOVE LOCKDOWN.
i'm not loving you, the way i wanted to.
|
|
date/time 10:10 PM
OH YEAH , SMEREK !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIZER. I HOPE YOU ENJOYED MY RECKLESS BEHAVIOR TOWARDS YOU. I KNOW IT WASN'T AT ALL LADY LIKE.. BUT YOU'RE MY FRIEND. AND IT'S FUN TO TREAT YOU LIKE A DOLL WHEN I WAS A KID. HAHAHA, I ENJOYED THE HAIR PULLING AND CHEEK SQUEEZING.
s`all out of love... HBD ! hope you had a good one.
|
|
date/time 10:08 PM
what my dad kept repeating.
1. LOVE CANNOT BE MEASURED.2. IF YOUR INENTIONS ARE RIGHT, EVERYTHING WILL BE SYCHRONIZED. IF YOUR INENTIONS ARE WRONG, EVERYTHING WILL FALL APART.
thanks daddy, i love you too.
|
|
date/time 9:48 PM
overboard.
OMFG, without technology for a day... it feels like SH//T. how did those people live before 1994 ? mustve been a gay ass life without internet. i havent written here in forever.. so i guess i'll update with my important 4 + school.
GOD: oh what would i do without you ? I KNOW you wouldn't give me anything that i can't handle.. it's just i wish you didn't trust me so much.
FAMILY: worst terms ever. i know i've made plenty of mistakes.. without them. and i've finally been able to talk to them straight up about it .. with force. but either way, i know they love me and it's super gay that they're taking away the computer from my room.. cause that's stupid. but they've taught me so much.. sosososo much.. and i owe my life to them. really, i am thankful, i just wish they didn't care so much HAH. i just wish you'd try and understand things in MY perspective. i won't get killed or anything just because i'm in vancouver T_T when will they realize that i'm growing up ? but what they have so much of brings me to my next..
LOVE: i'm talking about the unconditional love: which i have way too much of from my family that i feel like i just don't want it. now, i'm talking about the love love, as in i love you, love love. again, i've made so many mistakes. and whats more important about making a mistake is knowing how to take responsibility of it so that you won't do it again. this week has been hell.. and i can't figure out what i'm going to do with us. it's either we have nothing, or keep it on the low and have something secret.. which i don't think we should even have due to my family being nanana. either way it'll hurt.. cause i seriously cannot forget you..but if i don't then i'm going to get owned.
so who do you pick .. the person you think you love, the person you know that loves you, or family. the obvious answer here is family. but if family wants you to be happy then why don't they let you choose the person you either think u love or you love ? HUH? that's confusing. and when someone tells you to follow your heart, what if you do but your mind says not to? what if someone tells you to do what you THINK is right, but your heart doesn't like the idea. what if you KNOW you've chosen the right choice and both your heart and your mind is happy, but on the bigger perspective.. the whole world isn't happy about it. but if i'm happy.. then why is the world mad ? i seriously do not get this theorizing. do i choose happiness with hate or hate with happiness?
FRIENDS: oh baby, i KNOW who my real friends are. and i understand your purpose of lying to me about who told you something.. cause you're just being a good friend to that person as well. anyway... i'm starting to think that repetitive apologies have something to do with personal gain.. and NO i do not like that at all.. but maybe i'm wrong.
SCHOOL: wtf, school. what bullshi/. i'm starting to do well again, and hopefully continue like that.. even though i'm not doing math to write here. as everyone knows, i've been in and out of class lately.. not to skip but to talk to admin about things that have really been bothering me. yeah, it sounds kind of a pussy thing to do, but if it's been going for more than a year, it really gets to you, right? especially when it's been for no f/cking reason. SO today, i think i got all i needed. and i'm pretty damn sure i'm not letting go of it.
sighhhh once again, no matter how much hurt you put me through, i promised i'd be there, and i am. unfortunately, it's not that easy to let go of someone you know had the same kind of love in a bfffffffllllssss kind of way, that meant so much. huh.. somethinggg to deeply think about.
p.s. i love you. p.p.s. i can't say things will be okay, unless you think being without me is okay. but i seriously don't know what the future holds, so things might get worse, things might get better.. but i'm so much on the negative side now.. that i can't give you or myself false hope. but.. pray for the better, cause i seriously.. seriously am.
|
|
date/time Thursday, April 9, 2009,11:05 PM
letter.
dear you, i wanna write this apology letter as simple as possible, I'M SORRY THAT.. i've been keeping my stare too long on you and i think you think it's not right. but you seem to look back in interest, cause i'm always in or around your sight. but do you think it's okay if i call you baby? cause the way it sounds seems fine, maybe you could call me that to, to officialize that you're officially mine (: lalalalove & lmao (:
|
|
date/time Wednesday, April 8, 2009,6:08 PM
adversity walk.
OH CHOICES ! i've FINALLY realized..
EVERYDAY is a good day for me now, i've chosen to be a happy person.. AND I AM (: zomg . even today was a good day, cause i don't let the negatives include me in their development.. instead.. i include them in my development, which makes them POSITIVE..
which makes me a stronger person.
honestly, without you negatives, i'd be pretty damn weak.
lately.. it's been SO MUCH EASIER to get through the day. i'm loving it, there are way too many positives even on the rainiest day.
can we keep going with this attitude ?
Thanks JC, i believe in prayer. (:
|
|
date/time 4:44 PM
completely obsessed.
with only GOD, LOVE, FAMILY, FRIENDS.
i couldn't figure out which one to make as the biggest font.. because without one, i don't have the others.
|
|
date/time Tuesday, April 7, 2009,7:37 PM
Everything I Know.
littaabittaaearrcandyforryouursoul.
"how am i supposed to feel
when everything i'm working for
isn't working for me."
i'm sick and tired, of being tired of being sick, i'm feeling like i can't take it for no one, but i don't want to quit.
|
|
date/time 7:22 PM
heartless.
when i make it official that
i've fallen out of love with you,
i fall right back in, let me go.. to get me back.
|
|
date/time Monday, April 6, 2009,8:46 PM
call me up.
you can still call me baby, and play with my hands. cause there's always a someday, maybe.. that we'll both have better plans.
y`know that i love yuhh, and i know youu dooo.
|
|
date/time 8:36 PM
DOWN LOW.
baby, will you say "smile for me" ? this is for you..i appreciate the times you made me smile. the times you made me laugh. the times you made me cry. the times you made me angry. the times you made me depressed. the times you made me happy. the times you made me feel like i was the only person you ever loved. the times you made me feel like i was the one. this is for you.. and to your happiness, that we stay best friends forever. i love you. < ?
|
|
date/time Sunday, April 5, 2009,9:44 PM
lovelovelove you, JC (L)
Heal my heart and make it clean,
Open up my eyes to the things unseen,
Show me how to love, like you have loved me.
Break my heart for what is yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity.
|
|
date/time 3:55 PM
where did you go?
wait, don't go so fast. i'm missing the moment i spent last.
*you need it. *you want it. *you have it.
just remember.. time waits for no one.
|
|
date/time Saturday, April 4, 2009,3:41 PM
take and give shade.
ELIZER's VID:
" if somebody wants to walk out of your life.. let them go. "
Love Lockdown: You could absolutely know something's the best for you intellectually, but it doesn't necessarily mean you feel a sense of liberation. There has to be mourning for the wonderful parts. You have to accept that the relationship won't become what you thought it was going to be.
Love hurts: After you move on from a breakup and life hits you with an actual death, a divorce, or the loss of a job, having experienced a tough split might just be your emotional keystone-the building block to survive something even tougher. "If you've had a perfectly charmed life, there's nothing there to give you the courage and the hope that you've been through [something difficult before] and survived. Getting through a breakup also requires rewiring your brain to think more confidently.
Let it be known: 1. Recovery from a heartbreak can be as simple as faking it til you make it. 2. Accepting that heartbreak is part of the experience of love is crucial.
Playing it safe: If you're always so protected that you can't be hurt, then you'll limit the experiences you're going to have.
Little Something Something: What's sad to me? A life that's pain-free.
-sources from seventeen mag. ;P
|
|
date/time 3:19 PM
No, I can't be Superhuman.
It's not so much about the Superhuman aspect as i don't supposed any normal human being could acquire Superhuman abilities beyond hanging out with their significant other. But it is about feeling special when you're with that person, and if you can blow that out of proportion and exaggerate it, you could say that you feel like you have super powers.-GB (:
|
|
date/time Friday, April 3, 2009,10:48 PM
CHAMBER.
ELI: said: i wanna watch chamber sing again.
YEAH! THEY'RE AMAZINGLY AMAZING, and they made me start my day off really well (:
|
|
date/time 8:13 PM
CREATIVE RECREATIONS.
lukas: WHATSUP HOMESLICE! :D
THUH-FF: OH MY GOSH, today was SUCH A GOOD DAY, starting somewhat at the end of school. WOOH. you know those times when you get so excited with something, you and the person you're talking to just GO INSANE and do that really girl thing to do and talk really fast and are like " OMGOMGOMGOGM! " at the same time and jump up and down ?! YEAH, i had two REALLY epic ones today :||
OH HOT DAMN: -G block was boring. SO.. since mikaela left for thing, i left too (Y) after Father was done talking (which i did.. intently listen to) i stayed in the washroom, and got bored, so went to starbucks (: straawwberries&creme ftw! -after school, bussed straight to VC with jess and stayed until 4-4:30 ish with MATT A, matthew b, RJ, cio, greg, lukas, trevor. and yeah. andrew wasn't there! :( - HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA but JESS AND I SAW LOOOOL ! " her sexy mc dreamy neuro surgeon boy " HAHA shooot. -MATT GAVE ME SHOES, i didn't tell him to, i didn't ask for them, he's just so nice to me, and he gave jessica a REALLY BIG lollipop : ) so yeah.. Creative Recreation Dicoco Red Yellow Green Patent, my love.
AREN'T THEY SO NICE? SHOOT. well whatever, i don't care if you like them or not, cause I DO (H)(H)(H) ( LLL ) :D :D weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. -greg, matthew b, and matt bussed me ALL THE WAY to richmond (to my house) but matthew wanted a slurpee, so we got off like 5 stops before my house stop and went to 7/11 to get one T_T and got klondike bars (Y) -we found a shopping cart so matt a and matt b took me like.. 5 blocks all the way to my house (: -matt b went home, so matt a took me home to get changed, and we left to drop him off at the bus stop to go to PC for his little sleepover with brando, justin, and jesse or summthinn. -called julian and went to footloose
BEST PART OF MY DAY: SEEING MARIA FOR THE FIRST TIME OMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFG. IT WAS LIKE A REBIRTH IN LIFE HAHAHAHA, we saw eachother, screamed, and hugged each other so tightly and jumped in circles for like 3 minutes HAHAHA, and then had to leave right after
oooh shoot, today was crazy. there's nothinnngg betterr than chillingggg with yourr oldd besties ( L ) love to you guys to death forever. [: [:'
OUT OF ALL HONESTY..? on the other note.. if you find this blog lame or LG HAHAHA, then why are you reading it? " cause you feel like it? cause you just want to? cause you're waiting for me to blow up and write mean things about you so that you can talk about it and keep it for "future preferances. ? "OH, so don't comment about it, keep dashet to yoself! " i really don't like people who stalk my walls or this blogspot, it's pretty damn gross/creepy (no offence or anything), and i know who you are, but you can read on if you like to know about my days, cause they're just so damn deliciouso! (: don't worry, none of this stuff is for you (except this thing) but yeah, PEACE AND LOVE!
oh, i think drama is really pointless, but people can go on saying shit about me, since it entertains them and their conspirators lmfao, hell.. yaaah can say whatever you want! just know, this signifies that i really don't really at all give a flying fuckles! haha cool. so yeah, yuh live your life, and i'll live mine. thanks for helping me grow stronger in life, without this, i'd be like " ZOMG, SHE SAID SO AND SO ABOUT ME" but nahh, i've realized it's a waste of my time, and i don't need friends like that, and sooner or later, you'll realize it's immature, and a waste of your time too. like seriously, God gave YOU a life to LIVE, make everything out of it. :D :D
april 3rd ftw. AHAHAHAHAHAAH omfg, 22 + conner + K = j love. C2V!
p.s. i'm going back to portland to return those shoes, cause i feel real bad. p.p.s. i had a good talk with someone today, it was really short and subtle. but i realized that person's so calm, collected, and knows what they're doing. and we both don't like that fact you talk about us, when we don't even talk about you, and you still have the nerve to say hi to us. but whatever right? we know about who you are, and when we know who you are.. and the stuff you say about us, we know if you're worth it or not, we know everything.
|
|
date/time 7:25 AM
in this crazy world.
i'd just like to say, you've got some nerve.
anyway, i'm starting to dislike my cellphone cause im growing so attached to it again, which is a really bad thing. i think this time i'm going to get it taken away for LIFE. :(
AND, no more phone starting today after school until i'm done everything; only exception.. if it's important.
|
|
date/time 6:57 AM
caution.
I'ts bullshit. i've been having the best time OUTSIDE that danger zone, and i like it that way. (:
p.s. once you're in, don't think you can get out.
|
|
date/time Thursday, April 2, 2009,7:47 PM
selective hearing.
if i could, i'd take back the words i said. put you out of a harms reach, how could i have done that, said that, and make them think less.
if i could, i'd take back the words i said.
|
|
date/time 6:17 PM
don't be embarrassed.
I'm not your every day, around the way, Don't go bar-hoppin', chillin' on the block, On a cell phone frontin', Never that, cuz I'm not that kinda girl. I need to know how you roll, And how you get down low. Drop my money in the bank,
Take me home.. to meet your mama. Can you handle that? `Cause I'm that kinda girl. (:
NO this doesn't make me an LG just cause it's by jojo. THANKS. (:
|
|
date/time Wednesday, April 1, 2009,8:09 PM
can't afford.
no, no, no, i can't afford to lose you. please know, there are no lies. staysane.
|
|
date/time 8:08 PM
make my day.
[Domingo] [ 4 ] says: * cause magenta's supposed to be the opposite of blue (:
|
|
|
|
music
it's hard for me to pretend.
|
|
|
Profile
I'm Chelsea.
"wish that it was a perfect world where you could just forgive and forget; but you kind of learn that if someone loses your trust, you have to help them grow too, by giving them the consequence of 'letting them go and moving on..' it's hard to let someone go, but at the same time if you really love them, you're going to teach them what's right. love is selfless."
don't like what you see? try ALT + F4.
disclaim your rules
|
|
|
|