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date/time Tuesday, September 29, 2009,8:48 PM
Miss Esyou.
it smells like the new raindrops, slowly laying a blanket on the pavement.. colouring it a darker shade of gray.. and i experience this when i'm looking out of the skytrain when the clouds start to cry and play drums on all roof tops, which i hope doesn't make me crazy cause i feel like i'm flying. it's tastes like the warm cozy air brewing around in my vanilla-scented room, while i lie down on my small purple bed, listening to the muted tv, hear the trees rustle, and wait with a squeaking fan and a ticking clock.. for your phone call. and i don't know why, but it's an addiction, to miss you. to be away from you, just so that i can think about you.. even more.
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date/time Sunday, September 27, 2009,8:44 PM
If You Dream
CHOIR RETREAT was the best, bonding with the 11s and 12s was better. i can't believe i chose to be in art instead of choir. thanks to all the people who convinced and persuaded me to switch to choir and thanks mik for not being lazy. (: that's the second time i've made that mistake, and i screwed up cause now i don't have any classes with DA... speaking of DA: DA: been having the best "recents" with him lately. he brings positivity in my life, and that's something i really need.. cause "when i react in anger, i'm only struggling with myself" and he helps me react in a positive way. unfortunately, sometimes the way i behave and respond to small problems that come up between us isn't healthy at all, and he reflecs that which makes the problem worse sometimes.. but it's also a good thing because i realize that the way i act when i'm angry doesn't help solve anything. so thank you for all the smiles so far, and i can't even count the exact amount of million times that you've made me laugh unintentionally. i love you bb! SCHOOL has been pretty hectic lately, or i'm just making it that way and stressing over things that i don't really need to stress about HAH. i have a whole map of Canada to do in depth and it sounds like ms. inguanez has an impossible amount of expectations for it just cause we did so well with brochures. on the other side of academics.. there's always that feeling in school and what not with who your friends are, who to go with.. and i couldn't have made it without mikaela, kathlene, tomeia, and jessica. i know we've been through a lot of rough times, especially with k, and i'm so surprised that we've made it this far but i'm happy we have and i'm happy everything has made us tighter. ren, you bring out the blackness in me that laughs too loudly and talks like i own the world.. but that's okay, cause "your friends love you anyway.." (: .. getting ready to juggle choir, school, and partying with the best.
p.s. i'm happy we're talking for the first time.. i'm not as intimidated by your pretty blue eyes. p.p.s. i can't tell if you're a good friend, maybe you are... but not all the time. a "hi" once in a while would be nice.
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date/time Monday, September 21, 2009,7:16 PM
crossroads
so the school year is finally at the point where i'm starting to slack (4days) big time.. so i need to figure out the stuff that i have to do soon: - yoga with marishel, charlon, jess - sign ups for AWSI on weekends - ms. greene's planning sheet - figure out schedules for NLS - sign ups for WEDNESDAY on TUESDAY bd at thomson comm. - dance squad wednesday? yeah right. - figure out why you're not talking to me - figure out why you are talking to me
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date/time Saturday, September 19, 2009,7:48 PM
upper side.
p.s. how can i miss you so much but look at you and feel the most hurt i've ever felt?
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date/time Wednesday, September 16, 2009,7:33 PM
hey kids, stop fighting.
oh, you silly girl. didn't mama teach you to never play with the boys? are you listening to her? ...oh, so they're playing with you. well you can't let them do that. you can't let them take away your toys, your joy, your happiness.. your self. why don't you teach them something about you? if they don't stop bothering you, maybe that'll give you a clue..so i grow grow grow, and figure out playing with the boys ain't so bad.. cause i've found this one that's been making my world go round.. sometimes a little too fast, sometimes a little too slowly that i'm thinking "why has the world stopped?" sometimes, things aren't the same, but we always get to the same conclusion that if we've gone this far, we can go further. you learn that the world doesn't stop motion even when it feels like it has, it just shakes a bit back and forth.. you just have to let the excess water fall from your eyes and rebalance your world all over again. confused? well, you should've listened to mama.p.s. i wish i had bigger eyes.
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date/time Tuesday, September 15, 2009,6:29 PM
the answer's a no.
"don't let someone happen to you, happen to someone." can i describe you in three words? as if 'dictionary,' 'thesaurus,' and 'love,' ain't enough? but you know i think that describing someone who you've found makes your life feel a whole lot more complete deserves more than three words. i've been thinking, and he makes me think so hard it's like my heart ain't pounding hard enough. he makes me want me to wanna know him all the little bit more that when i get up, i realize that a whole 24 hours have passed. i think i've just spent a whole day n' nite with him.. like the moon and sun weren't supposed to be created, like waking up and sleeping off weren't in our vocabulary and human nature. so i supposed butterflies were never created to flutter so fast, cause i'm beyond the stomache flipping feeling when i'm being pulled off my feet and swept somewhere further away from all the realness of this word and only to find myself with one distraction. and you probably know very well who or what that is, but going beyond that, i don't wanna say it but i've gotta say that i've fallen. oops. and is it enough for me to say that i think ... i've grown wings and i've dove into a whole new world, flying higher but still within our atmosphere to make sure i'm atleast somewhere close to you on this planet. anyway, i'm superwoman, wonderwoman, lady gaga.. only because you're superman, spiderman, and jayz. you see.. i see you in me, so i think i'd have to change the word 'love' into 'me.' because you reflect my flaws and make them flawless, and i reflect yours.. you're like another mirror except with an unrelated blood type, but still.. you're the same kind of glass. and i like looking through you, cause i see me. so.. can i describe you in three words?
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date/time Monday, September 14, 2009,5:02 PM
baby, you're my everything.
love is patient. whatever you want, you work for. if it's not working for you, then you're not working hard enough.
but it took you awhile to realize didn't it? before i finally agreed to be part of the collection of the stars that you've seen before.. except i never left during the day. i shine bright, not just for you, but for me to show you that you've given me this light to shine brighter than all the other stars.. but it took you awhile, didn't it?
but.. it took me awhile didn't it?
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date/time Sunday, September 13, 2009,8:38 PM
am i in your head yet?
what would i do if i wanted to tell you the 1 million things that were on my mind?
don't you ever wonder when someone says 'i love you', you want to ask them what they mean? but you yourself know that no one really knows what it means.. so how could you ask such a wide question when you know you wouldn't get the answer you're looking for? i could go on forever. you could list a bunch of possibilities of things..like, love isn't temporary. it's unconditional.. and i've heard people say it a couple of times, but where are they now?you can't expect to love someone or for someone to love you.. if you don't love yourself. sometimes letting go of someone is the best thing you can do for them, and later on you'll figure out if it was the best for you. but how would you know that that person was the one you were supposed to let go of? and did you let go of them, or did they let go of you? either way.. i think that a person isn't fully detached from you if they haven't let go and you have. the only time when someone is totally out of your life is when you go back to when you never really knew them..so what i'm saying is, you can't let go of anyone completely, cause we can't go back in time. that's how our memory was made, and it was made that way to take what we want from people but not the person themself. in reality, you learn that you don't "need" anyone and that you can't be "addicted" to anyone except for God. you can't count on someone to be there for you forever when they might die the next day. the addiction should be towards God, cause when you're addicted to someone/something, it means that you don't want to get enough of it, that you're not satisfied with whoever or whatever you have and you want more.. and wanting more of someone turns into an obsession which leads to a restraining order. so what i'm trying to say is that, you don't ever need someone, you want someone, and when you want someone, you don't push them away..
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date/time Saturday, September 12, 2009,8:42 PM
i c u.
can we take a candid camera, and picture the laughing blue skies? while the earth rotates around our smiles together, we'll be able to see the lens from here and pose.
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date/time Wednesday, September 9, 2009,8:51 PM
THIS IS IT!
rf says: *I KNOW HAHA anyways brb i have to find my hamster HAHAHAHAHA. i have the worst teachers! besides araujo and tinaburri. :( and where the hell did zahar go? he's my favourite teacher. but my classes are okay, have them mostly with jessica and ren!, and nikko, jobi, and brian. i think the worst thing about today was the finale of the real world ///3 it's my favourite show because it shows real people and what they think and do and why they do it.. it really helps with so many different situations like when making mistakes and what not. i'm really looking forward for the next season, and i forgot to watch ANTM! :( woo, anyway, i'mgoing to go back to studying.. for fun for socials HAHA peeace.
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date/time Tuesday, September 8, 2009,7:54 PM
excuses, excuses.
okay, school was pretty awkward seeing everyone that honestly, i haven't and chose not to talk to in forever.. but on the bright side i have zahar for english and tinaB for french! WOO! and i got to see the bests again, whome i've really missed. i'm seriously ready for school, and i want that 4.0 more than ever (i know, geek) but seriously. the only thing i'm not looking forward to is that dumbass uncomfortable feeling that i get when i'm around people that i don't want to be around.. eh. all i need is someone there 24/7 to reassure me that everything will be okay if i'm with them without even doing anything.p.s. i can't spell for shit anymore, wtf is happening to me?
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date/time Saturday, September 5, 2009,12:39 PM
lemme tell you one time!
yay, i'm going shopping today!.. for school :S 4 more days? let's get back to pain, suffering, fun, chester stealing my pens, and homework! (insert sarcasm here)
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date/time Thursday, September 3, 2009,10:04 PM
don't worry bout it
i'm thinking school, like back in the day when we didn't have to care if our skirts were too long and our hair was a mess. when we could watch the boys and make fun of them like we thought we were so cool, like we were family. back when we could tell each other what we did on the weekend, without it relating to alchohol or smoking. i remember when my homework was to colour in the lines.. but why is it so much harder now.. i feel as if i'm colouring outside the lines.. trying to find new boundaries, making sure i don't spill off the paper. why is it so hard to tell someone what i did or find out during the weekend. why can't we be like family again, and just learn to trust ourselves like when we did on our first tries for the monkey bars, swings, or balance beam. maybe we're just broken families, with sisters and brothers twice removed.. ...whatever happened to all the things we learned now? was it imminent that we'd just throw them all away? the only thing we used to look for in a boy in our class was if he'd share with us, or if he'd let us borrow his pencil crayons.. but now looking for a boy that doesn't wanna share what he's caring around 24/7 is what worries us. anyway, either way, i miss being a kid, when we were told who we were instead of looking under rocks for our personalities to be completely discovered. i just wish, it wasn't so hard. p.s. we thought you were absolutely gorgeous in your profile picture, until we found out it wasn't really you..
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date/time 10:22 AM
mr. golden sun!
today was supposed to rain, but it didn't! thank you God for the beau weather aujourdhui! anyway, i'm spending an almost full day with CHARLON! woo! we're going to fill ourselves up with (only the best) Richmond Dimsum.. very different from vancouver's dimsum (: and then go shopping for a bit, and then.. HOT YOGA! haha there are some pretty embarressing holds.. but hopefully he won't wanna leave the room. (good luck) then i'm going length swimming.. just something to do before school to get me back in shape i guess? can't wait for school! gotta go school supply shopping. (:
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I'm Chelsea.
"wish that it was a perfect world where you could just forgive and forget; but you kind of learn that if someone loses your trust, you have to help them grow too, by giving them the consequence of 'letting them go and moving on..' it's hard to let someone go, but at the same time if you really love them, you're going to teach them what's right. love is selfless."
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