all i need is you.
baby, you can try to get strong your whole life, but you're not getting any stronger without making yourself vulnerable enough to become weak.
am i the only one that enjoyed 2009? i think 2008 was the worst year of my life.. all the drama, bullshit, and fake loving started way too early for me. I'm happy it happened earlier then never though. 2008 taught me how to deal with love, lust, hurt, others, depression, greed, self-esteem, understanding, confidence, and myself..all for the upcoming of 2009.. which was a really fun.
Highlights of the year:
apologies for 2008, my boyfriend, downtown shopping has been so good to me, states, hangouts, rens brithday, lifeguarding, paris, rome, london, choir, jessica in almost every class, good grades, paolo, julio, and nick's yagness, maria villadoloud, family, cupcakes, mikaela sleeping over, baby cousins, a laptop, longer hair, no drama, apologies for 2009, christmas, 6 months, love love love. NEW YEAR!!!
The people who made big differences in 2009 for me:
Denzel, Julio, Mikaela, Kathlene, Ren, Elizer, Jessica, family.
my small dedications:
Denzel: I know that we're the "exception" too :) you've taught me how to live my life in a much more happier way. I'm happy you completed your pursuit of happiness, it'll be like this forever. i don't think i'll ever meet another guy that will go through my whining, bitching, and crying..you always know what to say, and i hope it'll get better from here. i love you!
Julio: Every time i need you, you're always there for me, no matter what. You truly are like a big brother. i remember when i didn't know you, i thought you were a player.. but you're just a flirt HAHA. You give the best advice for anything and i can really tell you everything and anything without any problems. i promise one day, that since you always sing at our house, i'll sing for you. :) lah yah.
Mikaela: you are one of the biggest b*tches ever. no jk, i really love you, and you know how much i care for you. i'm sorry for telling you so many bad things i did, i'm sorry for falling asleep on you during all our sleep over talks (even on dockday) i knew that ever since you wrote me a long message on facebook telling me in all honesty what was happening in grade 8, i knew you cared too.. and you showed that by standing up for me. i know who you are, and even though people misunderstand you, know that even though you get yourself into big shit, i'll always be there to get you out.
Kathlene: i am seriously so surprised we've gone this far. no joke. through all the awkward moments, the tears, and depression we've both gone through, we've able to stick through. i remember in grade 8 we promised each other all that LG stuff like "jellie and kookie forever" and we've done well these 3 years. know that i got your front, remember? if there is any girl in the world that i can relate to with almost everything, it would be you. thank you for teaching me how to deal with a lot of situations. thank youu b!
Ren: LEN LEN, thank you for cheating with me on almost every single test HAHA jk, if i didn't have classes with you, i swear i'd be bored as hell. i can tell you a lot, and take you out to pho, and do illegal stuff with you cause we're that close. you always know how to make me laugh, and be honest about things. you bring so much positivity into my life and help me figure out which direction i should go in.. surprisingly AHAH. you and i are... matching skin tones
Elizer: All i have to say is, you're like a brother. You are family, and i literally wouldvn't been here if it weren't for you. you do so much for people, and you have no idea how much i appreciate you. QQ!
Jessica: You bring the most inspiration to my life. Everything you do, you do so well and independently.. you teach me that you can still be strong no matter what the problem is through all the negativity in this world. You teach me to be your own self and not give a damn about what other people have said. Thank you for sharing your piece of the world with me, i promise i'll be giving you mine.
p.s. thanks to all of those who i haven't mentioned. if you're reading this now, know that before shit happened (if you did shit...), you meant a lot to me.. and you showed that back to me by making a stronger. i hope one day, you realize that someone you try to break down only turns into a mirror to show you who's really getting hurt.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!