my life's alright.
"You think you want to die, but in reality,
you just want to be saved."
Yesterday was a seriously epic day that i don't think i'll ever forget anytime soon. First of all, the talent show was so crazy this year besides the useless techs. It was my first time in my whole life to ever do anything for the talent show and even though i'm ashamed that i play the violin, i let the whole school know that i do. I didn't play more than five notes anyway. "Do Something That Scares You Everyday." I didn't plan to sing the very last line 'STAND BY ME!' but if it wasn't for Elizer and Fed getting mad at me for my last minute complaining, i wouldvn't been able to face that fear. When i think about it, i can't believe i sang (even if it was just one line) in front of so many people. :$$
Before the talent show, i brought all the gifts that ren ren and I got for a lot of people and my cupcakes that i decorated last minute the day before. 9 were for Julio, 3 with Lindor Chocolate for Maria, and the rest for the party (:
I bussed to Chester's house with him, babe, and Mikaela but she went home first. I spent some time with DA for about 1 hour while Chester played NBA whatever on the 360 with his feet :S.
After, we bussed to Adriennes house for the party and everyone was apparently already there. Her house was SOO hot and insulated! anyway, there was so much food and a chocolate fondue fountain (L) I ate so much :$ we finally had our Kris Kringle when everyone came back from going in and out of her house or staying upstairs. I have to say that eating, praying, laughing, and exchanging christmas gifts together made me feel like we were back in grade eight.. like a family again. Brian gave me a teddy bear and I had to give Chester my Lindt Chocolate which was wrapped really nicely (: Kym, Rio, and Justine (Jobi's really pretty girlfriend!) joined the Kris Kringle too (:
Surprise? so before anyone that reads this assumes some of these are for them.. listen to me and.. don't. (:
1. I learned a lot about myself and everyone's security levels at the party.
2. Happiness doesn't mean everything is perfect. It means that you've learned to get over your imperfections. I think i'm happy.
3. Spending a lot of time with my favourite person in the world was no surprise.
4. Read my profile navigation. love is selfless.
5. I hope us three get stronger from this situation.
6. I think I've said enough, but you have to understand i can help you pretend that everything's okay right now but i won't. If you won't listen to your best friend, and chill with those people, then the only person that you'll listen to is yourself. I just hope you took into consideration that i care and that i wasn't just bullshitting you. You'll get to a point where ignoring the important things puts you into realization that you're going the wrong way. Whenever you feel the need to get back to reality...call. just remember for now, i'm living evidence that problems like these are tolerable.
7. i hope you change. too bad you didn't let me be the one to help you do that.
p.s. when you get the chance: http://tinyurl.com/yg7kw33
