hey ma. whatup?
i'm scared. what if you don't accept him the way I do. i know i shouldn't be keeping him away from you, but at the same time.. i know that it's really smart that i do. either way, you're going to hurt me.. and if i do tell you, you're going to hurt him. if i ever tell you, i'm not sure how it's going to end up. why are you acting this way if you already know? do you want me to tell you? or do you just not want to talk about it because you know something bad is going to happen.. i really need some kind of idea because no one in the whole world can read your mind.. not even your husband. so please, i'm trying to understand what you're thinking about me, about us. even when i think about it, i start to tear up. why can't things be the way they were before? when you used to accept anyone and everyone i was around. when you knew i was strong enough to know who was good for me. you know everything i have been through.. don't you think i know what's good for me?why can't you accept someone that respects what i want? i'm not asking you to love the same things i do, but at least accept things i need.
i love you, and i know you love me, but you're not the only one. i know this may sound stupid to you, but..
i love him too.