no one is supposed to feel lonely.
everyone's getting hurt by... people they love. (friends, family, boyfriends) and it hurts me to see it cause it hurts to feel it, even though i couldn't give a crap about who got hurt, i do.. cause no one deserves to feel like that.. anyway, we received our course selections this morning, and the meeting was pretty intimidating. my dad reminded me this morning that "without going through any pain, you won't get happiness." even though he was just talking about all those sciences he expects me to take, following the footsteps of my sister, i applied it to everything that's been happening.
it seems to me that it's so easy these days for people to forget. forget about who you are to them, and who you are in general. cause lately i've only assumed that "the mean girls get away with everything." it seems like, that's who everyone's attracted to lately.. but as much as i'd only enjoy that, i'm not going to do the same just to see if i can get the same.. i've got enough background people that i barely talk to that i know that they'll be there. i just hope that this "pain" will turn out to be some form of receiving happiness later on.
anyway, the same people have been the same people. their habits haven't changed, but their friends have. and i'm trying not to mind. i want to tell myself that i don't need anyone that treats me wrong, but how can you not be lying when they're the only people you'll be seeing everyday? i can't wait till i graduate. "we all want to grow older now, just to feel young again later."
like araujo says "you gotta be okay with the shit that you step on. you've gotta be able to look at the shit in your life, and be okay with it."
...i'm getting there.
q of the day: "i've had my share of tears, my sleepless nights, my days of mourning and inability to say one word.. but i've gotten stronger from that, and with it, i can learn to move on." -rel class/zimney.